You have my heart during this time of grief. I'm so, so deeply sorry for your loss and can't imagine all of the emotions you are feeling right now. Josh was more than a friend to me- he was my brother- and I consider this tragic event one of my greatest loses as well. In this time of sorrow, may you find renewed strength in the memory of his goodness. May you be lifted up and know that joy will return. May you be made well and whole again.